To Be or Not to Be?
Is it better to die trying, or to live without ever becoming who you wanted to be?
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A very brief talk about me
Oh boy, here we go. I’m gonna yap about why I started this website, my personal life, and the stuff that I do or have done in the past. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it!
Actually, I’ve been thinking about making a personal website and writing for a long time, probably around 2–3 years ago. But I was too damn lazy and procrastinated a lot.
I was also kind of obsessed with making a “perfect” website with a cool design and fancy animations from the beginning, which was pretty dumb. I mean, you can always improve your website later, right?
So yeah, I guess I’ll just make it first and improve it along the way.
I’m currently an undergraduate student at Bina Nusantara University, majoring in Computer Science.
I like tech and stuff, but my personal life goes beyond that. I’m also a musician (not that good though). I’m a pianist and an organist at my local church (yes, I’m Catholic).
Here I am, your average CS student, doing all the typical stuff that CS students do: assignments, projects, and studying for exams.
Trying to get a good GPA (GPA is just a number bro, jk).
I have good friends, and we often hang out together. We joke around a lot during classes, but we still pay attention to the lectures, I swear bro.
I’ve also won some software development competitions with my friends. Welp, I’ll probably make a dedicated post about that later!
Not only that, I’m currently exploring AI and machine learning this semester, and it’s pretty fun. I hope I can create some cool projects with AI in the future.
I started learning programming when I was in high school, and I really enjoyed it.
My first programming language was PHP, and I made some simple CRUD dynamic websites with it (back when I only knew about connection.php lol).
Then I moved on to Java for my Android development course. But honestly, I thought Java was kinda painful, so I left it behind lol.
Still, I don’t regret learning it because that’s where I learned the basics of OOP.
After that, I learned JavaScript, and I really liked it. I started building projects using technologies like ReactJS, NodeJS, and MongoDB.
Time skip to my internship at a SaaS company (plus some freelance projects in between).
I was a frontend engineer there. My eyes were opened, and I learned a lot about real-world software engineering. I had a lot of fun working there (even though I joined during a period when the company was going through layoffs for around 4 months).
I built some cool features for the company’s product, and I also learned the importance of teamwork and communication in software development.
Until now, I still code for fun, but it has started to feel a bit boring without enough challenges. The tech industry also feels more competitive, especially with the rise of AI.
So I want to explore other fields in tech, like AI and machine learning, maybe even blockchain and Web3. Or who knows, maybe Network Engineering and DevOps?
I’m open to exploring and learning new things.
I’ve been playing piano since I was a kid. It started with classical piano.
Man, learning music theory and reading scores was really stressful. But I have no regrets because all of my musicality was built from that foundation.
When I was in high school, I started learning how to play the organ.
In Indonesia, we rarely use real pipe organs, digital organs like Rodgers, or traditional organs. Most churches use Yamaha Electone instead.
I guess Electone is much easier compared to piano or traditional organs because it has many convenient features, like transposing. The keys are also smaller and lighter, making them easier to reach and press compared to real organ keys.
Rather than saying I’m a “real Christian Catholic,” I would say I’m a Christian who is still learning about faith and trying to become a better Catholic.
I was baptized as a baby, but I didn’t really understand what it meant until I was in high school.
I started learning more about my faith, and I really enjoyed it. I like the apostolic tradition, the teachings, the concept of love and God, and the values that Catholicism teaches.
I still have questions about some teachings, but I think that’s normal. Faith is a journey, and I’m still learning and growing.
I hope I can become a better Catholic in the future.
So I guess that’s all for now.
I’ll be posting more stuff in the future, like my projects, my thoughts about technology and life, and maybe even some music-related content.
I hope you enjoy reading my blog.
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